sa wakas, natapos na rin ang walang tigil kong pag-ubo, nagka abs na nga ako dahil doon eh.. haha.. kapani-paniwala ba? kani-kanina lamang nawala nang tuluyan ang aking ubo.. sayang nga eh, kung ala akong sakit noon, nakasama ako sa celebration ng bday ni goldie.. e2ng ubo na e2, noon pa eh.. nung nahawa ako kay marv-vic dati.. noong march pa.. err.. tapos binaliwala ko, ayan, lumala.. tapos nag night swimming pa ako noong outing.. pag-ahon, sobra lamig.. ndi agad nagpunas.. haha.. pero ayan, nakaraos din.. ang masaklap nga lang, basag boses ko ngaun.. sa tingin ko, mga 3 weeks bago gumanda ulit boses ko.. haha.. err..

wala akong napala sa outing ng faraday.. puro pagpapakaEMO lamang ang ginawa ko ng dalawang araw.. pinilit kong iwasan ang dapat kong iwasan.. bukod pa sa wala akong napala, nabasag pa boses ko dahil sa videoke.. kinanta ko ang "Tsinelas" tapos uminom ako ng malamig na tubig..

Ang dating IV - Faraday ay magkakaroon ng outing sa Calamba, Laguna sa darating na Abril 10, 2007 hanggang Abril 11, 2007. Pinag-iisipan ko kung sasama ba ako sa kanila o hindi. Nagdadalawang isip ako. Parang nahahati sa dalawa ang aking sarili, ang isa ay gustong sumama dahil sa kasiyahan at mga kaibigan, at ang isa naman ay ayaw sumama dahil sa gustong makalimot.

Err.. amp.. bakit ba ako nagkakaganito? bangag na yata ako.. hehe.. ano ba ang magandang desisyon? Sa tingin ko dapat akong sumama.. masaya rin siguro ako dun.. alam ko na.. sa mga oras na un, magpapatulong na ako sa paggawa ng pangatlong kanta.. ito ay ang "I Can't Forget" sa tingin ko naman, magagawa namin un sa loob ng anim na oras.. tama.. sasama na lang ako.. err..

Nahihirapan akong mag move-on. Kagabi, April 5, 2007 midnight, napanaginipan ko siya. Nakita ko na naman yung nangyari nung grad ball. Hindi ko makalimutan talaga. Sa tingin ko nasisira na ang ulo ko. Love ba ito? O obsession? Ayoko na. Gusto ko na kalimutan agad. Pero bakit parang ayaw ko pa? Kanina lamang, tinitigan ko ung mga pictures niya na nasa photobucket ng Faraday. Sinave ko ang lahat ng mga iyon sa PC ko. Tinitigan ko ang mga iyon hanggang sa maduling ako. Ayoko na talaga. Lalo nang masisira ang ulo ko.

Pipilitin ko na lang na makalimutan ang lahat. Idadaan ko na lamang ang mga ito sa paggawa ng kanta. May dalawa na akong nagawang kanta. Lahat tungkol dito, mula nung una pa lamang. Pinamagatan ko ang mga ito ng: "Listen" at "You Drove This Blade Straight To My Heart." Siguro ang susunod kong gagawing kanta, papamagatan kong "I Can't Forget." Ganun talaga, dahil hindi ko makalimutan. Hindi siya talaga siguro para sa akin. Maghihintay na lamang ako, hanggang sa may lumapit sa akin at sabihin sa akin "maaari mo ba akong isayaw ngayong gabing ito?" Parang ganun ang theme. Maaari ko na ring gawing pamagat ng ikaapat na kantang gagawin ko.

Last April 1, we had our graduation ball held on Grand Boulevard Hotel. Before I went there, I bought a bouquet of white roses which had 4 dozens. And then when I arrived, Mel met me at the hall. He asked me to come with him to the 19th floor to register. When I was in the elevator, I was thinking of what would happen later on. At the 19th floor, I saw Kelvin, Timothy and Enri standing at the front of the registration table. I approached them and said, "oi tol, dito na pala kau. kanina pa kau?" They said, "oo tol, kanina pa." We went inside the ballroom altogether. While we were walking, they asked, "tol, para kanino yang dala mo?" I quickly answered them, "kanino pa ba?" We were talking until we had taken our seats. Tim asked me, "ano plano mo mamaya?" I did not talk for a while and kept thinking. Afterwards, I said "tol, kinakabahan ako." Tim said, "wag kang kabahan, kaya mo yan." Because of Tim's words, I did not feel nervous anymore.

After a few minutes, the mysterious girl arrived. My nervousness came back to me and I did not know what to do. Tim gave me the flowers and said, "tol, bigay mo na, wag kang mahiya." I stood and approached the girl. I said, "for you." After a few minutes, I went back to my seat and talked a lot about everything. After a few programs, the dance had started. I stayed standing near the air conditioning unit and did not know what to do. My friends said, "ano ka ba? bakit ndi mo lapitan?" I walked slowly towards her and I said, "May I dance with you?" After a while, I asked her, "meron akong nais liwanagin, meron ba talaga?" She replied, "mabait ka, pero... sorry... sorry.. ndi ko maisasauli sau.." I stopped talking after that and continued dancing. After a song I went back to my seat and Katz approached me. She asked me to dance with her. So I stood up and danced. We talked about what I would do later on. Thirty minutes later, I think, I asked the girl to dance with me again. While we were dancing, I said, "meron akong sasabihin sau, matagal ko na gustong sabihin sau ito... I love you." After a few seconds, she replied, "sorry, ndi ko maisasauli sau. Pero as a friend. Sorry talaga. I said, "ok lang.." But deep inside, everything was shattered.

I went back to my seat, and asked my self, "why?" Kelvin approached me and said, "sorry tol.. dapat last week ko pa sinabi sau." I said, "ok lang, tapos na eh. Ayoko na, sawa na ako. I will just wait na lang. Parang ganito, may babaeng lalapit sa akin at sabihin nyang "maaari mo ba akong isayaw?"" After a few conversation, I asked Kelvin to come with me to buy some beers after the ball. So the ball was over and we went outside and bought some beers. We went back to the hotel and drank the beers. After twenty minutes, I think, I put out my polo and my pants. I was only wearing a boxer shorts. After a while, somebody knocked the door. As I was the person who is near the door, they asked me to open it. I opened the door and hid behind it so that nobody else can see me wearing a boxer shorts. As I opened it, my friends laughed and I did not know why. Afterwards, I saw the mysterious girl went inside the room. I ran to the bathroom and hid for a while. After the girl went back outside, which is after five minutes, I already went out of the bathroom. And as the beer already affected me, I finally went to sleep.